becoming aware of my senses, especially the ones that allow me to feel energy, i noticed something was upsetting. it wasn't upsetting me, yet it was still present. it was there in the room with me.
that was my first speed bump.
the thoughts i think about become my reality. and far to often i would get confused about my thoughts and the feelings i'd sense. when i'd sense unsettling feelings, i'd change my thoughts to meet this new feeling. and all of a sudden, i'm now living someone else's reality, not my own.
so i question this belief. i question it because it doesn't make sense to me why i need to change who i am for someone else.
if someone else has a thought it is clear to me that that thought will become true for them. if our thoughts are different which they will be, our life experiences will be different. it is liberating for me to know i have the power to change my thoughts which affect my reality. and i do not need to change how i feel because of how someone else feels. they are allowed to live a different life.
but that vibration is still there. i could feel the energy. it was quiet. it was slow. it was tired.
i'm here to help. i'm here to heal. and i have the gifts that i can share that will help.
forgetting what i've always done in the past, which hasn't worked, i tried a new approach. i applied proven principles to counter that energy.
i asked, is everything okay? not getting to the root, i changed the question. are you tired?
yes she softly answers.
is there something you want to talk about? silence. change the question my mind offered again.
and the energy shifted.
what is it that causes human emotion to behave in certain ways. if you had the choice to be tired, sad, happy, excited, energized, jazzed, what would you choose?
now if you find yourself wanting to feel sad. accept that feeling. feel that emotion of sadness. sadness is an experience that is giving you a time to go within. why are you experiencing that sadness? it may be your ego answering back but truly embrace that feeling.
this sadness is not who you are. it may be the experience you are feeling in this moment. it may be the only thing on your mind, but it doesn't need to control you.
maybe you feel tired. if you are tired, go to bed. get some sleep. rest. your body is talking to you.
if you want something different out of your body, decide to take on that different belief.
i lived a long time always coming home from work feeling tired. i had a long day. i had a long drive. all i felt was tired. it became my routine. it became the pattern i adopted for myself. it made me miserable. i fell deeper into a quote unquote coma. i operated each day but wasn't ever present. i simply went through the motions. silently wasting my day, i dreaded having to do it again and again and again.
something needs to change. something needs to happen. this is not the life i envision for myself. i'm changing this behavior.
one night, it's 7pm, i'm alone, i've been awake since 4am, i decide enough is enough.
i'm sick of complaining about being tired. i'm sick of living this way. i want to learn. i want to read. i want to grow.
but how can i do that when i'm tired, it's not possible, my mind interjects.
quite the contrary.
anything is possible when you see life as an opportunity. and this opportunity presented herself to me powerfully as a lesson.
i am willing to change.
i get up. i move. i alter my state of being.
emotion is created by motion i remember tony robbins telling me.
i made a cup of green tea - the caffeine will physically wake me up. this is what i'm called to do today.
i make that cup of tea. i wake up. i read. and i feel energized. i no longer want to just lazily go to bed. i no longer want to just come home from work and sit around. that's just not me. i've got bigger plans.
day after day, i continue to take charge. that feeling has passed. my mind has taken on a new pattern. and i'm energized to serve.
take your life to the next level by accepting who you are today. forgive yourself of any past experience. forgive yourself for any blame and guilt that you have allowed into your being.
forgiveness is the key to awareness and awareness is your magic wand.
you have an immense power within you to be great.
when you throw a rock into a pond, a ripple effects occurs.
life answers the very same way.
so choose to continually throw rockets of desire into your mind, break your pattern of thought that is limiting you, and let that vibrational energy respond. it will thunder on.
each day is an opportunity to begin again. how will you choose to begin?