dream

on releasing my attachment to discover my twin flame

every day i am presented with choices to make. my mind always wanting to please others, i know which direction he tries to steer me. he wants to win at all costs. he wants to be right no matter what the fallout. he needs that approval.

man this is deeply rooted inside me. 

i can feel my soul send shivers down my right arm, now my left. a chill encompasses my entire being. immediately i know what is important to me. 

love.

how can i express my love today?

love for myself, love for my twin flame, love for others, love for life.

i am a creature of habit but am breaking my ties. i no longer need to live the same way, everyday.

if something is not making me happy, i choose to get at the seed of that thought, remove it from my garden and plant a new seed.

i know i can. i have the tools the strength and the power to do so. i may need to weed my garden of my worries but when i do, my world answers me with bountiful blessings. 

a case in point.

just over a year ago, i asked the girl of my dreams to marry me. we hiked to the top of her favorite peak (alone in a blizzard) where i dropped to one knee and expressed my love, my commitment, my excitement to share the rest of my life with her. and the best part, she eventually said yes - yes eventually, that's a side story i'll share at some point.

Derek Russell proposes atop mountain to kara

the joy running through my body right meow fills me with peace. it fills me with pure happiness again. to think about that moment that happened just over a year ago, i am immediately a little boy again full of youthful expression.

but before i was with her, i was alone. i was alone for many years. i was lonely. i wanted her in my life. 

i dated many young and beautiful women. many only lasted a couple of dates. a couple were longer but eventually those relationships turned into better friendships. we knew we each had a different life we were meant to live. and so we moved on.

and it was hard. living years without anyone. by myself. i was attractive, funny, athletic, smart. where was she? and why haven't i found he yet, i agonized about it day after day.

i did something new to me. i called upon my angels to help me find her. 

my soul reminds me, when you can live and trust that what you desire is coming back to you, you will be surprised at how quickly you see what you desire appearing in your life. and it will come to you when you are ready. no earlier, no later.

i practice visualizing my life with my future wife. i see us smiling. laughing. playing. traveling the world. helping millions. i imagine the adventures we take together, the experiences we share, the love.

i grin from ear to ear this morning seeing the complete verification of this tool in my life.

as i released my inner need to have this girl in my life, the universe guided me into her arms.

when you committed to trusting yourself, when you let go of that incessant attachment, + when you really felt the emotions of being with her, you aligned yourself with your next level of awareness. you freed your mind from worry. your expression of gratitude in this moment brought you more to be grateful for.

be one with your creator.

be one with your spirit.

bringing this awareness into my mind this morning of what i created, i am at peace. i feel AMAZING! i can do whatever i intend. all i need to do i ask my angels for guidance, put the power of intention to work and trust the universe will handle all the details. 

I choose abundance for life.

Celebrating the Visionary Wisdom of MLK

each and everyday, i allow my mind, body and spirit to be guided.

i train myself to let go of past limiting beliefs that no longer serve me.

i train my mind to release all my emotions giving me abundance in all that i do.

i train my mind to be free and open to all possibilities.

and by taking this time daily to go within, i create my world!

and today, i want to share the intentions i set forth through the wisdom of Martin Luther King Jr.

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we all have a gift to share with the world. what is yours?

with love

derek russell
 

activating my inner power

what is inside my head? who is there? what are these thoughts?

pounding + loud voices + yelling

this isn't me, this isn't who i am. yet i'm sensing these awful demons in my head. why are they flooding my mind? there is no use for them - they are just there.

i'm confused & i don't like it. i don't like it at all!

i meditate. well, i attempt to meditate. i attempt to quiet my mind down because i know of the importance.

finally...i silence these thoughts.

and i feel i must surrender to the truth. i must accept life.

because what i am feeling is real yes but it doesn't need to be me. it doesn't need to stay with me. and when it comes again, i know i must have the self-love to surrender it right back, and let it fade away.

i'm just extremely anxious.

anxious about life, anxious about finding my first home.

i hate making excuses so i won't; this is my opportunity to grow

everything i need is coming to me when i need it.

i am patient. my dream home is coming to me effortlessly, easily, and quickly

i am ready for this growth. it's what i've been manifesting into my life.

i said yes & the universe is answering.

 
the beach is that way :)

the beach is that way :)

 

with arms wide open,

kara + i are ready. we're game.

we're ready for our new chapter together

ready to expand our souls

ready to listen to the love that is within us

ready to share our beauty with you.

i can see myself in our home. and let me just say this, the home is my absolute dream home. expansive views, lots of natural sunlight, and my own artist's studio!

and the home complements our adventurous lifestyle - it truly brings the outdoors in. it's in the best location.

i can feel it coming to us - it's right there, oh so close

i feel how magical and inspiring this place is. how my world opens up even more when i am there. i can feel my creative business really soar. how my love is shared. everything i see, everything i touch is beautiful. the love - the love that speaks the real me - shines so bright!

i'm so excited. these feelings feel so good!

as always, surrendering without love and without taking action is worthless so I want you to take a moment and listen to your feelings, is there something you desire but are not getting?

in the comments below, share with us specifically what it is - and the really important piece - tell us how when you see yourself with your desire how it makes you feel. is there another actionable insight you’re taking away from today’s message?

thank you, as always, for sharing and commenting with such kindness, enthusiasm and clarity.

xoxo

Derek Russell soulful sunday
 

looking back at college

i'm 29 now and wow, it's been over 7 years since i graduated from college!

i was talking to kara about her experiences in college, and i wanna reflect on my years.

what a journey.

from getting my heart broken freshman year - it all happens for a reason. i'm now married to my twin flame! You rock kara!!

to an unbearable amount of stress from school work - i probably did way more than i needed too

to an infatuation with life - i began to love who i was

to happiness + joy - i found peace with myself and fun times with friends.

i learned a ton during my 4 years of college and not just what i majored in. but each and every experience gave me the opportunity to gain insight and knowledge. it opened up my eyes to the abundance in the world.

i was a freshman when i picked up my first wayne dyer book, the power of intention. i remember being immediately hooked by his words. they echoed so real to me. i could sit for hours reading his stories. there was something very special in what he was sharing with me. 

it resonated within me - the energy, the power of his words. i knew what he said to be true. 

and so college was a time for me to discover myself - well more of myself i guess. i was on my own and i could do anything i wanted to.

besides the typical college stories of late nights, girls, the gym and bars,

i really connected to my higher spiritual self.

i needed too.

with all the stress and anxiety, not to mention workload, that my engineering curriculum put me through, i needed a way out. 

yes, i was a very determined student. i wanted to do well. and i was confident with my ability to excel in school. but it wasn't that it came easy to me. i had to work harder than ever. i had to spend more time studying and preparing - again i probably did way more than necessary.

i'd go through phases where i didn't want to be there! i hated it.

but my college years gave me the opportunity to learn, to develop, and to practice my skills

i'm thankful for these times as they taught me to move past the fear.

when i found and applied the teachings of tony robbins, i was able to take action immediate action in my life to make it better. 

soon, i realized i could do anything i set my mind too

anything was possible!

what i also learned that proved to help me on so many levels was to listen more to what my intuition was telling me.

instead of doing what others were doing, i'd ask my heart for guidance.

here's a funny story that happened on more than one occassion. sometimes when a group of us were preparing for a test at the library, i'd go find a comfortable armchair that i could move into a sunny spot to soak up the rays. maybe it was natures way of restoring me and giving me what i needed most. 

and then what i did next will shock you.

i'd place a book on my chest and close my eyes.

yes, while my classmates were studying, i was sleeping. i called it my way of absorbing the material. 

and i still do it today.

i didn't ask questions when i felt this urge to "absorb the material". i just trusted myself and released all the worry i had. besides i'd already studied for countless hours day after day and needed a break. i'd done all the homework and understood what my body and mind needed. and that was to feel relaxed. 

now, how in the world did i discover that trick?

in high school, i was lucky enough to have been able to study reiki and became a reiki practitioner. in the simplest sense, reiki is a form of relaxation.

and i used this gift to help me through the tough times. 

i needed a way to calm down, to relax, and to know all is well.

 
That's me on the far right with my buddies holding the banner before Commencement

That's me on the far right with my buddies holding the banner before Commencement

 

i don't even want to begin to tell you how many times i tried to get out of engineering, more than i can count - and i was good at math.

but every time i thought i had had enough and was changing majors, something didn't feel right. something felt off. 

i paid attention to this feeling and started to go with the flow, rather than fight it.

instead of being right all the time, i took the huge risk (for me anyways) of being happy. and you know what, i still made out all right, and i was able to have more fun.

i needed to accept myself - hard for me to say, even now reflecting back on it years later.

i needed to show myself the love i deserve

now, i’d love to hear from you. do you have a personal practice that helps you through the tough times? 

leave a comment below and let us know. so many incredible souls join us for insight and inspiration so thank you in advance for sharing your voice to the conversation.

with love + appreciation

derek russell soulful sunday
 

never grow up

remember when you were a kid and how innocent you were? how fun everything was?

i was thinking about this on my 55 mile commute to my "day job" this morning (I know I sound like my parents telling me how when they were in school they had to walk to school uphill both ways in the snow barefoot). have you heard a similar tune?

i say "day job" loosely because I'm only doing it for the security it provides for me and my family. there are bills to pay & mouths to feed. but as I listen to myself defend why I'm driving to a job that doesn't ignite my passion, I realize something SO important.

these thoughts are not mine -

but why do i constantly think about them? why am i dragging myself to work everyday? for what reason? if i'm thinking about them doesn't that mean they are mine?

after much struggle and confusion, my mind going cray cray, i offer this hypothesis to my own inner question. when we grow up, we learn to believe certain things to be true. we hear things, we see things and we evaluate based on our experiences. we then make educated decisions based on those experiences.

but what if those beliefs are just thoughts that we have been conditioned to believe. what if we could change those thoughts immediately?

so i tell myself - i'm gonna challenge it.

i'm not going to listen to what others tell me to do if it doesn't feel good to me

to me, life is an opportunity.

& possibilities are everywhere.

and everything that happens, happens for a reason.

my journey, my path, my life is shaped by my experiences, not by what you say to me or tell me

so yes, there is probably some lesson behind all this that i need to learn before i can move forward

so i think some more, i have plenty of time in the car to do that, and i remember when i was a kid. heck i'm still a kid

i remember a time when all I ever thought about was play.

i never worried.

i remember how the sun feels when her rays kiss my face

Photo courtesy of  Ayla

Photo courtesy of Ayla

and I think it's time to get back to that place. that place where i didn't worry. i didn't stress out.

i just enjoyed being -

being in every moment,

being present.

i need to get back to my roots.

i need to do what makes ME feel good and not worry what others have to say.

i need to laugh more.

i need to forget feeling the need to "grow up".

i need to be strong

i need to recognize that i am not here to just live day to day in the same job, doing the same thing for my entire life. i'm sorry but that's just plain boring!

so i ask myself this, what do i desire?

i love exploring nature. i love creating. i love sharing my expressions with you. i love connecting with the ones i love. i love seeing you smile. i love seeing you laugh. i love snow - wait what? sorry it's the first day of snow here and yay it brings back so many joyful memories.

i snapped this quick photo from my office overlooking the meadow beyond the trees.

i snapped this quick photo from my office overlooking the meadow beyond the trees.

now here's my first chance to take back control, to feel like me again

thanks for listening

"I have a dream."

Quote by Martin Luther King Jr

Original Fine Art Oil Portrait Painting by portrait & nature fine artist Derek Russell

Original Fine Art Oil Portrait Painting by portrait & nature fine artist Derek Russell

About Derek Russell

Russell, born 1985, lives and works in the mountains of New Hampshire. His areas of interest include painting, health and wellness, higher consciousness, architecture, growth mindset, engineering, travel, sports, and adventure. And he is happily married to his wife, Kara.

His love for adventure started in college when he began traveling and exploring the beauty of the world and its amazing people, places and experiences. This is the energy he captures in each of his pieces.

The foundation for his art is grounded in a decade long interaction with the art of realism. Researching and learning the techniques of the old masters, he felt a calling to express himself with paint. For over 10 years, he continued to draw and paint in a very slow and precise way. An internal struggle to make his work perfect fought with his desire to paint. And he stopped for years.

After an intensive yearlong study under a Copley Art Master, his awareness changed. By engaging in a visual story with the live models he painted, he needed to paint faster.

And then one day, it clicked for him.

He put aside his analytical mind and let the colors speak to him. He coined the term “Free Spirited Realism” as a brand for his art. It is a dance between contemporary art and realism.

When viewing his work at a close range, areas are broken up and fit together only at a distance. As you advance toward his painting, it becomes more abstract, more fluid, and as you move away, it falls into focus and is realistic. At no two distances will the painting appear the same.

He has developed a dynamic way of combining abstraction with realism. In this technique, he is able to make the action within the painting as intense and exciting as it actually is in your direct experience.

He creates meaningful, engaging stories with a shower of bold, vibrant color that inspire people to open their minds and make a positive impact on the world.

Today, his art is collected in several countries around the world.

www.DerekRussellArtist.com