life coach

sharing the beauty

the colors of spring are here! love it. i love color. 

and being outside feels so good. the sunshine is AMAZING.

our minds have a powerful ability to imagine whatever we choose. and when we focus our attention on disempowering beliefs we destroy any sense of creativity we may have had.

with a slight breeze and the sun starting to lower, my wife and i head out for an evening walk. immediately we were in awe of the forsythia blooming brightly just steps away from my new studio (yes you heard it my own art studio with gallery). we had to stop, run back and grab a camera to capture this spirit

i'm so grateful for this opportunity to express my soul. to have my own place where I can create under the moonlight and before the sunrises is a dream.

what we think about truly becomes our reality. train your mind to create your desires. repetition is the mother of all skill. make those thoughts count.

i dont want to miss a thing

i'm awake. it's another early morning, 4am. pretty soon the sun will be rising. i love being awake at this hour. i get to communicate with my soul. i meditate. but my mind won't stop wandering. the past few days it's been wanting to race. i'm not sure where the finish line is or where it is going. it is just all over the place. it races through questions, concerns, issues. i'm training my mind to focus on the positive. i'm training my mind to work for me.

with meditation, i'm recognizing the thoughts that are flowing through me are just that - thoughts. i embrace them, i accept them and then i let them go freely. i refocus on my breathing. an inhale. exhale. birds are chirping. the world is waking up around me. i feel whole.

i'm back on track, poop, there i go thinking again.

within each moment there are an infinite number of possibilities waiting for you. let them guide you.

instead of pushing away my problems, i notice them. problems are just sign posts directing me on my journey. there is no need to hate them. fear them. dread them.

but what about this physical pain in my body that i've been experiencing for months? why won't it go away?

i tried working out yesterday. it was the first time in over 3 months since i did a push up or pull up. those are my things. those are my exercises. i love training my body. i love sculpting my body. it is another art form of mine. 

i am an artist of life.

everything i do, i express the artist within me.

the art of love

the art of laughter

the art of dreaming

i love the energy that's pouring out of me.

but why this pain. why this physical pain? what am i missing? what is the bigger lesson?

i don't want to miss a thing.

 
Prints are available  here

Prints are available here

 

is the pain deeper? what is the root cause? rather than just focus on the surface level issue, go deeper and be willing to change. it all stems from your willingness to change. to change your patterns. to change your lifestyle. to change your attitude. you must commit fully to change. and know you won't miss a thing. you will experience each moment to the fullest. each smile. each laugh. each kiss.

trust that all is well and all will be well.

whether you know it or not, you are afraid of change.

change is good. change is natural. change is mandatory for life to exist.

think of a flower, always changing, always growing, yet beautiful all throughout her life. be that flower and embrace change.

when you do, your pain will go away. you will see you never miss a beat. you will never miss a thing.

thoughts escape out of me as i notice them flowing around me. they only have meaning to me if i put attachment onto them. with each step, with each movement, i am living, breathing, experiencing the amazement.

i settle into my morning - i am safe. i am experiencing a joyful day of abundance and love.

4 words that will change your life

"Y.O.L.O." my twin flame smiles at me.

confused, i looked dumbfounded back at her. ok - thank you?

i know she likes making up her own words, and i'm learning to understand them but it's taking some time.

You. Only. Live. Once.

i really connected to it. it's loaded with meaning. it's fun to say. it's liberating to live.

Derek Russell jumping with Kara

each week on tuesday's i'll share a new Y.O.L.O. moment

what's yours this week?

on making decisions

i'm strengthening my muscles. not just my physical muscles but my muscles to take risks, my muscles to make decisions, my muscles to learn.

for as long as i can remember, i've refused to be wrong. it just wasn't an option for me. i had to be right no matter what it was.

and it is this rigid refusal to never be wrong that launched me down a path i unconsciously chose for myself.

over the years, i've experienced physical pain in many ways.

just 2 years ago, a week before my sister's destination wedding, i was lifting an axel with tires over my head. i was outside on pavement. i was with a strongman competitor - imagine a really big guy and then triple that size. 

i wanted his approval, so i pushed myself beyond my bodies physical limits. i blacked out and fell straight backwards to the ground. My head smashing the pavement.

coming to, i slowly remembered where i was. when i got to the emergency care facility, i cried. i cried because i couldn't focus. i cried because i couldn't read the forms. i slumped down in the chair. tears filled my eyes. fear crept over me. what have i done to myself. i didn't even want to be doing this workout. i was only doing it to fit it. 

my immediate reaction was to get mad at myself. 

i was given a second chance that day, and i vowed to never do that workout again.

and time would pass.

until i got injured again. this time a hamstring injury.

i couldn't deal with it. it ate at me. i buried myself in the pain. 

next a knee injury.

more feeling sorry for myself. more guilt. more pain.

until i most recently have been experiencing an elbow injury. 

my soul is channeled. you are being given gifts. can you see them?

how are you going to pick yourself up after you fail? how are you learning from each of your experiences? how you decide to live consciously from this moment on is what makes your present and future. decide to stop feeling sorry for yourself. decide to stop believing you only get attention when you are injured. these beliefs are part of your past. you do not need to carry them with you any longer..

too often you go with the flow because it is the easiest thing to do. you go with the current, with the masses. but what happens when the current picks up and you are presented with a fork in the river? do you have a game plan for where you want to be in your life or are you just flailing at this point? are you scrambling to get to the shore, hoping to dodge the rocks? or are you oblivious to the choice you had? are you aware of the decisions you are making in this moment?

i'm proud to be back on my ship. i've got my map out and i'm looking down the river. i'm open to the expected and unexpected routes to take me where i'm looking to go. no longer are my past conditions going to leave me stuck in the mud, unable to move. i'm taking absolute control over my life.

i am flexible and flowing.

i easily move with new experiences, new directions and new changes.

i choose to learn

a pivotal decision came to me about a month ago when i decided, again, that i was finally going to immerse myself in learning.

i love learning. i've loved it for the longest time, however i never liked the approach taught in schools. i hated to memorize. i hated to be forced to learn certain material in a certain way. and all so that a teacher could "test" you on your understanding of the material. heck it's only the material that someone else wanted you to know.

wouldn't it be great if you had the choice to learn what interested you?

i'm here to tell you, you do.

pick up that book you have been wanting to read. order that audio program you have been thinking about. you deserve it. you deserve to grow. it is your birthright.

i am committed to learning.

                                                   soaring high atop Mount Chocorua

                                                   soaring high atop Mount Chocorua

when i was younger, i had "friends" that would tease me about learning. and because i was not confident in myself at this time in my development, i listened to them.

i only learned what i needed to learn based on what the teachers wanted me to know. i learned for the sake of grades alone. not because i was interested in the material.

and that's an important consideration to make. what excites you? 

now I'm learning because i want to. i have linked an incredible amount of pleasure to learning. and this creation of pleasure feels good to me. and guess what else it does for me? it make me want to learn even more.

when i was younger i dabbled into personal development, mindfulness, the metaphysical and alternative healing modalities. it intrigued me. it excited me. somewhere along the lines, i told myself i could never make anything of it, so i stopped learning what i wanted and only focused on what others wanted me to learn.

i am thankful for this opportunity right now. it's time to stop feeling sorry for myself. it's time to stop worrying what others will think. it's time to do what feels right to me.

if i can understand human behavior, the emotions associated with that particular behavior and how to change that developed pattern, i could greatly change my life. i could create the life of my dreams. and this is what i did.

learning is giving me the ability to create the physical body i choose, to feel better, to experience happiness, to inspire and connect with the people i care about, to marry my twin flame, to live in my dream home + more.

learning is a gift i can share with you. and I'm committed to it. 

i'm on a transformational journey. i love the emotions that are running through me as i write.

empowerment. excitement. joy. love

i am blessed to share my life with my wife. 

and it all came back to applying the strategies around making a difference in peoples lives. there are tools and strategies that when applied correctly can massively affect positive change in your life. i am living, breathing testament to it.

the ripple effect of thought

energy is vibrational. it has a magical way of giving us information when we align to that energy field. too many times in my past, i'd ignore those signs. i'd only have my own worries at hand that i wanted to work on. i had my own mission. i was close minded. i was greedy. i was not seeing my fullest potential. 

i didn't feel the need to help others. but i've shifted.

and life gave me an opportunity to begin.

 
my wife and i on a hike. this is a way for me to realize new opportunities

my wife and i on a hike. this is a way for me to realize new opportunities

 

becoming aware of my senses, especially the ones that allow me to feel energy, i noticed something was upsetting. it wasn't upsetting me, yet it was still present. it was there in the room with me. 

that was my first speed bump.

the thoughts i think about become my reality. and far to often i would get confused about my thoughts and the feelings i'd sense. when i'd sense unsettling feelings, i'd change my thoughts to meet this new feeling. and all of a sudden, i'm now living someone else's reality, not my own.

so i question this belief. i question it because it doesn't make sense to me why i need to change who i am for someone else.

if someone else has a thought it is clear to me that that thought will become true for them. if our thoughts are different which they will be, our life experiences will be different. it is liberating for me to know i have the power to change my thoughts which affect my reality. and i do not need to change how i feel because of how someone else feels. they are allowed to live a different life.

but that vibration is still there. i could feel the energy. it was quiet. it was slow. it was tired.

i'm here to help. i'm here to heal. and i have the gifts that i can share that will help.

forgetting what i've always done in the past, which hasn't worked, i tried a new approach. i applied proven principles to counter that energy.

i asked, is everything okay? not getting to the root, i changed the question. are you tired?

yes she softly answers. 

is there something you want to talk about? silence. change the question my mind offered again.

and the energy shifted.

what is it that causes human emotion to behave in certain ways. if you had the choice to be tired, sad, happy, excited, energized, jazzed, what would you choose? 

now if you find yourself wanting to feel sad. accept that feeling. feel that emotion of sadness. sadness is an experience that is giving you a time to go within. why are you experiencing that sadness? it may be your ego answering back but truly embrace that feeling. 

this sadness is not who you are. it may be the experience you are feeling in this moment. it may be the only thing on your mind, but it doesn't need to control you.

maybe you feel tired. if you are tired, go to bed. get some sleep. rest. your body is talking to you.

if you want something different out of your body, decide to take on that different belief.

i lived a long time always coming home from work feeling tired. i had a long day. i had a long drive. all i felt was tired. it became my routine. it became the pattern i adopted for myself. it made me miserable. i fell deeper into a quote unquote coma. i operated each day but wasn't ever present. i simply went through the motions. silently wasting my day, i dreaded having to do it again and again and again. 

something needs to change. something needs to happen. this is not the life i envision for myself. i'm changing this behavior.

one night, it's 7pm, i'm alone, i've been awake since 4am, i decide enough is enough.

i'm sick of complaining about being tired. i'm sick of living this way. i want to learn. i want to read. i want to grow. 

but how can i do that when i'm tired, it's not possible, my mind interjects.

quite the contrary. 

anything is possible when you see life as an opportunity. and this opportunity presented herself to me powerfully as a lesson. 

i am willing to change.

i get up. i move. i alter my state of being.

emotion is created by motion i remember tony robbins telling me.

i made a cup of green tea - the caffeine will physically wake me up. this is what i'm called to do today.

i make that cup of tea. i wake up. i read. and i feel energized. i no longer want to just lazily go to bed. i no longer want to just come home from work and sit around. that's just not me. i've got bigger plans.

day after day, i continue to take charge. that feeling has passed. my mind has taken on a new pattern. and i'm energized to serve.

take your life to the next level by accepting who you are today. forgive yourself of any past experience. forgive yourself for any blame and guilt that you have allowed into your being. 

forgiveness is the key to awareness and awareness is your magic wand.

you have an immense power within you to be great.

when you throw a rock into a pond, a ripple effects occurs.

life answers the very same way.

so choose to continually throw rockets of desire into your mind, break your pattern of thought that is limiting you, and let that vibrational energy respond. it will thunder on. 

each day is an opportunity to begin again. how will you choose to begin?