love

offer yourself this gift this holiday season

i am in awe at the wonderful magnificence that awakens me each day. ok i need to come clean. i admit, i do have an alarm clark but that's not quite the magnificence i'm referring too. I'm talking about my soul's ability to awaken before the alarm clock each and every day, and at around the same time each day. my inner clock - no i am being told it isn't even a clock. maybe it is the soul or a spirit guide looking to offer me something that cannot be heard during the hustle of the day. 

there is a time for communication and there is a time for quiet meditation.

i am just like you.  

the thoughts still like to play with me. they enjoy coming in, dancing around, causing a rise out of me and then move on. i like that dance. i am the lead. and when i meditate i choose to allow thoughts and feelings to come and go without any attachment to them. i give no attachment to these thoughts and they fade away on their own. 

i close my eyes and look up into my minds eye. my third eye. i see the writing on a black board. or is it blue? is it the sky? letters coming across from right to left. sliding almost, 

blurry fields

as i try to focus in on the words, the fog envelopes me. 

let the magic of life dance for you. let the miracle of life become a daily appreciation. 

each day is a miracle. it is whether you choose to see it as such. i'm at a point in my life where i say why not? why continue to choose to see problems when i can choose possibilities.  

when i go to that place of possibility, anything is possible. anything can be turned to gold. anything i focus my attention on has the power to show up in my life today. i feel this - i know this (beautiful). it is a fact for me. there is no attachment to the outcome. there is no one else confirming this to me. there is me. my soul. and i know. i have that burning desire that heats up. it melts away the bonds to fear and lack mentality. 

i am forever expansive. i am free.

i am true. i express the truth. and that truth is beauty.

oh it feels so good communing with you. i hope you don't think I'm crazy?

its okay, I'm not caught up in that game of comparison. besides its nice to have this chance to talk with you.

i am love.

you are love. spread your wings and fly. soar above the trees. open your wings. 

the peace. the fulfillment. the joy.

so simple, yet so very empowering.

in this time when everyone around me is go go go and rush rush rush, i choose to go inward. i choose to look for a place where i can offer myself a gift. and that gift is silence.

it is the new medicine of the world. you'll hear about it soon.

within you is the capacity for healing. take time for yourself this holiday season.

witness your life

can you spot the waterfall? so majestic!

can you spot the waterfall? so majestic!

okay, so that's a pic from our honeymoon to hawaii. AMAZING! we chartered a boat to take us down the Napali Coast. and we saw so many waterfalls. have i ever told you how in love with waterfalls i am?

so many magical places i've traveled too, explored and shared memories with family and friends.

it's so good to look back.

i am so gratefu

i'm aware of my ever expanding world of creation. i trust in my heart of hearts that life is protecting me. my ascended masters are guiding me.  

thank you for guiding me through this crazy world we live in.

it's only crazy if you believe it to be. instead of consistently using the word crazy, choose to see the perfect unfolding of life as it is. swap out crazy for amazing. and witness the miracle of life.

sitting here this morning i know i am exactly where i am meant to be.

i'm offering my body this time to heal.

ever since the 6th grade, i've worn glasses or contacts. i was afraid of seeing what lay ahead for me. instead of trusting in the Divine guidance, i lived in fear. that is no longer the case, because today...

i see with love and joy.

rise and sunshine

it's a beautiful day. and a special one for someone i hold close to my heart.

i first met her 3 years ago in a shaw's parking lot - apparently a park-n-ride is a sketchy place. i was standing outside my car, shades on, right knee bent and foot resting on the rear wheel. cowboy style.

it was our first date. the first time we would meet face to face.

we found each other online - yes, online. we both decided to take the gamble, why not go "shopping" for a lover from the comfort of our pjs and bed.

i daydream back to the day when she hopped out of that black mercury sable and bounced over to me with open arms, a smile so bright, + an aura so big. pure happiness still echoes through me thinking about it.

that day in february our worlds collided.

immediately i knew, she knew too - we were meant for each other.

our playfulness grew as we ventured off into the woods

with only 1 stale granola bar, it's all yours.

our bubble of love when nothing else matters, all time stands still, all worries disappear, all doubt fades away, + laughter fills the air.

Derek Russell with kara in arms

jumping forward to this morning when i rise from bed, one that we now share

it's a rise and sunshine day.

happy birthday monkey

i'm proud of you. so proud.

and i want to give you a gift you will always remember. i want to give you the moon. i want to give you the stars. i want to give you my heart.

take my hand, as i offer you my sunshine

you inspire me.

let's dance those socks right off

happy birthday little peach

<3 xoxo <3

a morning of gratitude

3:30am. it's early.

i turn the alarm off. i choose to lay in a state of gratitude. i flood my mind with all that i am grateful for.

my bed that gave me comfort throughout the night. these sheets that kept me warm.

the love vibrating from my wife as she peacefully sleeps beside me.

i move closer to cuddle, feeling her wrap her arms around me. i smile. there is nothing more that i like better than a soft embrace, especially in the early morning hours.

i'm thankful for my hearing as i listen to the birds singing their songs - spring is back

i'm drawn to open my eyes, sight - what a gift. thank you, thank you, thank you.

inspiration builds inside me. i feel these colors are speaking directly to me. the sky transforms into a majestic array of beauty. peach hues, strawberry highlights, lilac clouds contrast this lightness. the evening sky a thing of beauty. always changing. always alive. always new. so fresh. so amazing. thank you.

capturing beauty in nature

capturing beauty in nature

i continue on closing my eyes again. thank you for my dream home. thank you for my life. thank you for this day.

the more i learn, the more engaged i become. i love the expansion that is happening. i can feel myself healing.

taking it a step further, i challenge my mind to consistently repeat, i approve of myself. i started this exercise a few days ago. at first i was struck by the silliness of this. if felt stupid. it felt wrong. why did i need to tell myself that i approve of myself. of course i do. why do i need to say? my ego treading on thin water attempts to freeze the pond of my mind.

i walk in step to my inner intelligence as i choose to recite these powerful four words over and over in my head.

far too long, i neglected to take care of me. i'm done worrying about what i did or didn't do in my past. i'm doing it now.

an ease flows over me.

i release the need to get up, to go to my 9-5 (technically speaking i've got a 7-4) for the next 2.5 hours.

i relax in the presence that i am.

awake. aware. alive.

i trust the process of life. all is well.

life supports me

i woke up with a pounding headache. one of those pains that reverberates from your forehead encapsulating your eyes and shoots to the back of your head. back and forth the energy quickens and speeds up - hunger. hunger pains hit me hard. 

relax and allow those feelings to pass my soul is with me now.

 
Derek Russell
 

feed your body, give your body nourishment. your body is a wonder land of opportunity. always there for you whenever you call upon him. support your body with proper nutrition, rest, exercise, and love.  

if you want to go somewhere, go there + know that life supports you. life loves you.

calling to my soul this morning, are you there? i'd like to channel you through me. are there other spirits there with you? they are free to come through as well. i'm beginning to recognize the incredible power i have when i ask for guidance.

and the creative juice flows.

love the gifts you share. you are becoming attuned to your higher life's purpose.

this is a very special moment. one that will never come again. feel each ounce of excitement. 

smile bigger + brighter than ever before. know that your gifts are within you. discover them, open up to them, and breathe in that deep place of knowing. you are well on your way.

we're proud of you derek. last night, you made a grand leap of faith. you activated the energy from within. instead of empathizing with someone else's worries and fears and bringing them into your life. instead of taking them on as your own, you stood firm. you stood from the castle of awareness. you kept the moat all around you. you were the giant that could not be taken down. you were the giver of love. your passion to help came through loud and clear. did you sense it? 

this gentle offering of service to another awakened the desire within you to create major breakthroughs in other peoples life - this is your calling. do you feel it? you are the next tony robbins and wayne dyer. your words flow with ease out of the depths of your soul.

continue to apply your wisdom. continue to read and write and implement. take action. take risks.

on releasing my attachment to discover my twin flame

every day i am presented with choices to make. my mind always wanting to please others, i know which direction he tries to steer me. he wants to win at all costs. he wants to be right no matter what the fallout. he needs that approval.

man this is deeply rooted inside me. 

i can feel my soul send shivers down my right arm, now my left. a chill encompasses my entire being. immediately i know what is important to me. 

love.

how can i express my love today?

love for myself, love for my twin flame, love for others, love for life.

i am a creature of habit but am breaking my ties. i no longer need to live the same way, everyday.

if something is not making me happy, i choose to get at the seed of that thought, remove it from my garden and plant a new seed.

i know i can. i have the tools the strength and the power to do so. i may need to weed my garden of my worries but when i do, my world answers me with bountiful blessings. 

a case in point.

just over a year ago, i asked the girl of my dreams to marry me. we hiked to the top of her favorite peak (alone in a blizzard) where i dropped to one knee and expressed my love, my commitment, my excitement to share the rest of my life with her. and the best part, she eventually said yes - yes eventually, that's a side story i'll share at some point.

Derek Russell proposes atop mountain to kara

the joy running through my body right meow fills me with peace. it fills me with pure happiness again. to think about that moment that happened just over a year ago, i am immediately a little boy again full of youthful expression.

but before i was with her, i was alone. i was alone for many years. i was lonely. i wanted her in my life. 

i dated many young and beautiful women. many only lasted a couple of dates. a couple were longer but eventually those relationships turned into better friendships. we knew we each had a different life we were meant to live. and so we moved on.

and it was hard. living years without anyone. by myself. i was attractive, funny, athletic, smart. where was she? and why haven't i found he yet, i agonized about it day after day.

i did something new to me. i called upon my angels to help me find her. 

my soul reminds me, when you can live and trust that what you desire is coming back to you, you will be surprised at how quickly you see what you desire appearing in your life. and it will come to you when you are ready. no earlier, no later.

i practice visualizing my life with my future wife. i see us smiling. laughing. playing. traveling the world. helping millions. i imagine the adventures we take together, the experiences we share, the love.

i grin from ear to ear this morning seeing the complete verification of this tool in my life.

as i released my inner need to have this girl in my life, the universe guided me into her arms.

when you committed to trusting yourself, when you let go of that incessant attachment, + when you really felt the emotions of being with her, you aligned yourself with your next level of awareness. you freed your mind from worry. your expression of gratitude in this moment brought you more to be grateful for.

be one with your creator.

be one with your spirit.

bringing this awareness into my mind this morning of what i created, i am at peace. i feel AMAZING! i can do whatever i intend. all i need to do i ask my angels for guidance, put the power of intention to work and trust the universe will handle all the details. 

I choose abundance for life.

on growing with my twin flame

i am going through a healing that i have been training for for a quite a long time. and i am finally ready. i am finally ready to heal. i am finally ready to grow.

this one goes out to my twin flame, my best friend, my adventure buddy, my lover, my wife, my little peach, my monkey.

i am so grateful to have you in my life.

you will not even begin to understand how long i have been searching for you. or maybe you will. maybe your soul has been searching for me.

but what i do know is, i was not willing to settle with anyone other than you. there is no woman, no girl, no lady more exquisite than you. no soul more magnificent than yours.

over every hill, across country lines, within each forest, and under every sea, i called for you. i sent out a beacon of love for you.

and i knew i had to find you before i could even think about moving onward on my journey, on our journey together.

we have traveled many lifetimes apart but the reuniting of our souls in this physical body is stronger than ever. our love sends rockets of radiance to all those around us. we are messengers of love, healers of light.

you are a gift in my life and there is no place i'd rather be than in your arms.

i belong with you, you belong with me, you’re my sweetheart
— ho hey, the lumineers

i may not always say thank you. i may not always agree with you. but know the togetherness i feel with you is one of unbounded love. it is unbending. and it will never break.

our love is beautiful and bright.

i love you more than words could ever describe.

i am immensely thankful that we have connected, that we are sharing our lives becoming what our souls are intended to be - and we are doing it TOGETHER.

you are my rock.

thank you for shining love in my life. 

thank you for supporting me throughout this healing.

i am awakening to my inner intelligence and am releasing these hidden fears that i've buried deep within me.

my soul is awakening and communicating with me more and more.

before i met you i hid my anger and inner hatred. i smothered myself. i was a victim in my life. i was always looking for the approval of others. i needed it. i wasn't able to be me.

with you i realize i don't need to live that way anymore. i don't need to pretend any longer. i don't want to.

i am moving through this pain very quickly.

marrying you was the most joyful day of my life. it was a day when all my worries disappeared. all my fears were nowhere to be seen, nowhere to be felt, nowhere to be heard. it was a day of pure love, happiness, and freedom. it was our day. and what a day it was!

i thought for sure i was going to cry. but the sight of you strutting down that aisle to me on that most memorable day, our most glorious day this past october is forever engrained in my heart, in my mind and in my soul when our souls united to become one, all i could do was smile. it was happening. 

see what i mean, big smile. Photo by NH Images

see what i mean, big smile. Photo by NH Images

you beamed a brilliant white light of love of happiness of life waving at everyone and telling them how beautiful they looked, yet you were the only one i saw. you looked so elegant in your backless dress.

ow ow we look so fine. photo by nh images

ow ow we look so fine. photo by nh images

the silliness, the laughter, the life we share is a dream come true. it has been a dream of mine since i was a little boy.

i longed for you way before i ever knew you.

so i'd like to take this moment, right now, to ask you for your hand again

it's time to dance the night away

on reconnecting to my soul

i had a calling to wake up today. it's saturday, i can sleep in. the alarm doesn't need to sound. but my body wakes up at 5am.

maybe it's because I asked myself before i closed my eyes last night to awaken me in the morning when my soul was ready to speak.

this is a completely new strategy for me. and sweet, it seemed to work.

i'm wanting more of my soul connection. i'm wanting to experience that divine connection to my all powerful source of being in every moment. i don't need to listen to my ego any longer.

my body turns over, my eyes not wanting to open just quite yet. i'm awake but why aren't i still asleep? and then i remembered. a sensation tells me to stop laying down, to stop looking over at the time wishing for it to be later. why does it need to be any later than it is right now? why can i not get up? my mind begins to analyze, critique, judge. 

i recognize i'm the only one telling myself whether or not to get up. 

so i stretch long, extend my arms and legs, pointing my toes - yes pointing my toes, love it! - and roll to the right swinging myself out of bed and onto the floor in one swift motion. that's how i remember it. i stand up. i look up. i want to hear what my soul has to say.

i meditate or rather i attempt to calm my mind from constant wandering and thinking. and for the most part, i'm successful.

it's weird how i am judging myself on how i meditate. it's my choice to meditate. it's something i'm learning to do. and it can be what i want. i don't need to judge myself on how i am failing to meditate while i attempt to meditate. my ego is screaming for attention. this is no game, there are no competitors, you are free to just be. 

i let my mind wander.

when i notice it drifting off again into another world of thought, i silently and graciously return my attention to my breathing. i focus on my nose. the freshness of life that enters and flows throughout my entire body. love fills me up.

 
derek russell meditate
 

immediately, calmness takes over.

and my message comes to me, i am moving beyond my ego in my day to day world. i'm letting my heart guide me.

i've only ever really been able to experience this freedom when i create art.

painting is my expression that brings me immediately to this place. this place where all fear inside me subsides, the chatter in my head disappears, and my soul communicates to me.

my soul talks to me, sending me messages.

i even get messages from spiritual beings outside of my own soul.

i let them come to me. i let them guide my paint brush. i let them choose the colors.

this message resonates within me, and i am brought back to my place in this amazing world we live in.

i love who i am. i'm growing. i'm learning. i'm accepting.

and i'd love to hear what you feel. have you ever tried asking for divine guidance to give you what you need?

your words are music to my eyes and inspiration for thousands of souls from around the world. may you be filled with joyous energy as you share your experiences with us. 

sending a soulful hug,

derek russell
 

Oprah & Wayne Dyer Speak on the Art of Manifestation

these two souls have had a huge impact in my life, and i am so thankful their messages about life came to me. they were meant to be.

here is a short video of oprah and wayne dyer discussing the art of manifestation on the oprah winfrey network. - it's a must see for anyone wishing to bring more clarity and focus into their life.

this is the direction my art is moving into. so powerful to feel this guidance

as always, i'd love to hear from you, what was the most important idea from this video that you plan to apply into your daily life and why?

with love

derek russell
 

my decision to choose abundance

3.5 years ago, i was ready

i was fighting bouts of depression. i felt lost. & i was scared.

i didn't want to admit anything was wrong with me. i'd try to remain cool, but deep down i knew my body was giving off an energy that said...i was sad.

it's always been hard for me to admit. i like to be happy. that's just who i am. 

but the more i pushed, the more life pushed back. and the faller away from myself i felt.

but i'm learning. i'm recognizing the opportunity i have to grow

and i'm trying hard to come clean with myself about my fears that have so dominated my life. 

fears that have been built up inside me for years. fears that i want to release because they no longer serve me

fears of rejection, embarrassment, + failure.

i was lonely.

and it felt like i was living a lie. i was working 70-80 hour weeks in construction with little or no time for myself. no time to relax. no time to play. and no time to create.

i didn't have a personal life. my job turned into my life. how horrible?

i was always the one that would rather go on an adventure, have more play in my life than work more hours for the same pay.

and so i'd criticize myself? i'd get mad at my life. and it would affect my relationships. especially my relationship with myself.

there was always an inner battle going on inside my head. i couldn't escape it! it terrorized me.

i was insecure. and these thoughts quickly consumed me. 

and when i finally stepped back after talking with my mom on a walk one afternoon, i understood what i was unconsciously doing to myself wasn't healthy. 

in fact it left me feeling depleted, lost, and hopeless.

i saw myself faced with a decision. 

i could either continue living like i was or rediscover myself.

clearly i wanted out but to do that i needed to accept my life.

i needed to appreciate myself. i needed to feel grateful for all the lessons my life was teaching me. i needed to go within for guidance.

and by making this conscious decision with myself i turned onto the road of abundance.

i accepted any mistakes i made. i realized i don't need to be perfect. besides it's way too much work and hassle.

and when i let go of the need to be perfect, i freed my soul!

i felt alive for the first time in years! 

 
enjoying my day in the mountains of vermont with my family

enjoying my day in the mountains of vermont with my family

 

it was incredible to feel this way. the joy, the passion, the love of life. everything seemed so beautiful. everything around me smiled back. my life filled with happiness.

i felt like me!

and that's when i started to create again. 

i felt connected.

the inspiration poured out of me. ideas flowed. opportunities started falling into my lap.

i love being me!

in the comments below I want to know-

have you ever had a fear of failure and overcome it? what exactly did you do?

what subconscious beliefs do you think may be getting in the way of your success and how can this process help you right now?

as always, thank you for reading and contributing. i’m looking forward to hearing what you have to say on this topic as it’s a really important one!

love

 

the ultimate question, why?

the other night i was curled up in a blanket with my wife, kara, chatting + sipping tea - sounds charming, i know. we don't have a tv so it's what we do. and yes, we actually enjoy this time together without the television.

anyways, i happened upon an article while surfing my news feed earlier that day and shared with her what the cheapest countries were to live in. i was shocked at how low the cost of living was in some countries. $70/month rent to live in a one bedroom apartment in nepal? and only $50/month for heat, electricity, water & trash? 

man, i could move there and live for an entire year for what it costs to rent here for one month! that's how they do it i exclaimed to her.

a sad expression formed on her face, I'm confused, i thought we were looking for a house?

and this was our opportunity to connect

we opened up about our feelings. what we wanted? what we needed? and then we let down our guards and voiced our fears. i confessed my fears of security and money. and how i wanted to make sure we lived the life we wanted but wasn't sure how to do it. and the fear of not having the time to experience everything i want to do. i put it all out there in the open - something i've been afraid to do in the past. it felt so good to bond with her. to really share my deepest fears & feel her support back for me. she poured her heart right back, and we shared a really special moment.

and we did something unexpected!

we exposed what i believe is the ultimate question, why? why do we do the things we do?

kara's eyes sparkled - i love when they do this by the way, "love is the answer"

i almost fell over when i heard her say those words, literally i was stunned.

no, not because i disagreed with her but more - i completely agreed with her!

i ran to get my computer.

i pointed at the screen, i wrote those exact words on my homepage earlier that day "love is the answer"

this is why i do what i do - love!

 
that's us on our honeymoon.  i love you kara

that's us on our honeymoon. i love you kara

 

i’d love to hear why you’re doing what you're doing. please leave me a comment below.

and as always, thank you in advance for sharing with such compassion and insight. so many souls come here each week for inspiration and support, and you never fail to deliver.

with love + excitement,

derek russell soulful sunday
 

4am calling

do you ever wake up early in the morning and wonder why in the world you awake at this hour of the day? 

i know i used too.

i say used too, because i'm discovering the beauty of the early morning, when the world around me is quiet and there are no distractions. i enjoy this quiet time when nothing is going on.

today i jumped back into my meditation practice at 4:30am. i sat crossed legged for 40 minutes on the end of my yoga mat (trying to sit still and quiet my mind). it was extremely difficult to just sit there. thoughts streamed through my mind. my body ached with pain. my lower back screamed in agony, yet i continued. i know i must work through the pain and beyond the thoughts - it is good training for me. it is preparing me. why?

well, there are a couple of reasons; 1. i have this feeling deep within me that says i must do it if i want to manifest my desires, 2. i've read many books by famous authors and listened to many interviews in which meditation is said to be one of the most beneficial things you can do for yourself. and it is best to practice first thing in the morning.

i'm dedicated to making this commitment. i am fulfilling my destiny.

getting into the gap between my thoughts at 4am may sound crazy but it is a time when i hear my soul speaking directly to me. and i like that flow of love. my soul brings me gifts of abundance that are unexpected.