positive thinking

awaken the spirit within you

it worked. it worked. my spirit has come alive.

last night before i drifted off into blissful rest, i asked my spirit guides for guidance. and they are here with me right now. a soft beauty now surrounds my heart. a sensation of love. a feeling of togetherness. we are all one. 

waking up with the urge to write, to express, to share. i am doing it. its 5am and I'm writing again. YAY. so much joy right now, you don't even understand. 

for months now, i've been attempting to wake up and write. i want to share my story. i know when i share my story big things are happening. its an amazing journey that I'm proud to be a part of. there is a bigger part of me, something i am trying to explain through my words. when i write in the morning i am most connected to my universal source energy. there haven't been conditions throughout the day that have triggered emotions. i am at my most peaceful state. 

there is something about writing in the early morning for me. it is just me and spirit. words flow like water. gently caressing the page with ease and comfort. there is a peaceful ambiance to the air.

like water droplets hitting the roof and sliding down. life is a gift. appreciate every moment you have. appreciate and take it in. no need to be sour. no need to be someone you are not. 

release the baggage and pick up a handful of bewilderment. 

there are people out there telling me what to write. how to write. why to write. but in all reality. i write because i have an inner calling to write to connect to share my messages with you. i know you get it. and i know there are others who just want the facts, the meat, the pie. they can go get that but first, a blessing for myself. for awakening the spirit within me. thank you.

do you ever wonder why you are here? and what your purpose on earth really is?

you came here for a reason. you are reading my writing for a reason. we are all connected. we are connected to a universal power that is stronger than force. why would you be here otherwise? and if you are meant to be appreciating each moment, why choose to criticize and blame yourself. are you looking for help from someone outside you? are you looking for pity? 

now is your time to choose yourself. give yourself a break and live a little. you'll be amazed at all the possibilities that start happening in your life.

my genius has been asking to speak. out of my misunderstanding, i was taking the messages to be fatigue and boredom. but really, they were signs for me to move beyond the surface emotions.

your genius awaits you. your genius is here ready to connect with you. open up your minds eye and soul. breathe fully. breathe deeply. and love.

love the miracle of life that brought you here. love the miracle that connected us all. 

many of us have gone throughout our lives believing false evidence. we believe success needs to be hard to come by. we believe in order to succeed we need to work really really really hard for it. we need to pay the price of admission. and out of this force we expect unlimited abundance and happiness and prosperity.

the opposite actually happens. we see less and less of our families that at one point in our lives that was all we cared about. all we wanted was to be united with that special someone. all of our waking hours were consumed with dreams of who she is and what she was like. and how about that happiness card? have you really thought there is something you need to be, do or have before you can grant yourself the opportunity to be happy. to experience happiness is a birthright. and by all means, prosperity. what does prosperity mean to you? does it mean riches? does it mean gold? does it mean the fastest car? or is there more to prosperity than material wealth? 

the choice is yours. your time has come. will you answer your calling?

jumping back in

have you ever started something and never wanted it to end? 

have you ever tried to make the most of something but struggled to find the joy in it?

would you like to be more, do more, make a difference?

questions about worth and competency stroll their idyllic heads in trying to make haste. trying to stir up emotion. it's okay. i accept whatever needs to be presented to me today. 

others are pouncing on me. announcements becoming verdicts. what is right? what is good? you need to do this. why are you doing that? who are you anyway?

questions, questions, questions. will they ever let up! 

there is an aching feeling. a feeling inside me that won't go away. no matter how hard i try to let go. it may be days, months or even years later, but it comes back. i used to berate myself constantly for feeling this shame. i didn't know how to cope with it. it's really a strange feeling. a feeling like you are useless. you are a nobody. like what you do does not matter. i would drink myself to sleep at night. i know i've shared this about me before. i know i repeat myself. but it's helping. i'm releasing some kind of self-imposed conditioning that says i cannot be doing what i love. but what is it that i love? 

I feel this ache and let it air out. it needs to breathe.

tell the story of your life the way you see it. everything happens for a reason. don't you believe this? you talk about it all the time? 

and why are you just now coming back to write? where have you been? what do you really think will come of this writing anyway? 

freedom. love. abundance. joy. 

i needed a break, okay. i had some things on my mind, and i was not in a place to share them. i had other things to do. wait, i don't need to defend myself any longer. ego you are getting dropped at the curb. your days are outnumbered. i've recognized your face and its time to let my own beauty shine. 

its time to truly believe i can be me. without drugs. without alcohol. without any other addictive forces. forces trying to ease the pain of transition. forces pushing their way to make me do things i really don't want to do. i've done things to be nice. i've done things to be kind. 

maybe its time to let go of caring so much. 

struggle, perfectionism, doubt.

i guess those are the three things holding me back. its time to make a change. to let go and let the universe handle the details. 

you are healthy, whole and complete. you are a divine being. you were sent here to inspire. stop trying so damn hard. just be yourself. people want to know the real you. not the you that is created out of fear of disapproval. what kind of way to live is that? trust yourself. love yourself.

who cares what others think!

listen to your heart. you already know what you need to do. 

on expecting miracles

i'm not talking about tomorrow, not next week, not next year, not 5 years from now. today. this moment. be here now. this is your time. embrace it. open your heart.

this moment in life is yours. cherish it. 

stop worrying about what's going on outside of you, quit procrastinating about doing what you love, eliminate the thought pattern that waiting until tomorrow will make it all better. instead go inward right meow and experience what you are feeling. listen to your body, it has secrets to tell you. is it happiness? is it sadness? is it fear? is it confusion? is it boredom?

ask yourself why you are experiencing this sadness.

don't hide away from your feelings. accept them and know that you are exactly where you should be.

focus. i'm serious. focus on this moment, on this word, on this sentence. your mind may want to wander. your eyes may want to scan the page for something new, but i challenge you to focus. focus on yourself. choose to live fully. choose to live openly. choose to live now

because really when you think about it, you only have this moment once. soon it will be gone forever. there is no other time when you are able to embrace this moment but right now. 

i totally jumped in. screamed like a girl. and swam like crazy to get out. but it was so worth it

i totally jumped in. screamed like a girl. and swam like crazy to get out. but it was so worth it

this moment is exactly as it should be. exactly.

and it is a culmination of all the choices you have made in your life.

you created this moment whether you want to believe that or not. and you are meant to be right here right now. 

accept + love yourself. you deserve it. give yourself a big hug + smile. relax. let go. soon it too will pass.

my world has come together so magically. just the other day, i heard someone set the bar so low for themselves, you had to be careful not to trip over it. the man dug even further when he announced he doesn't believe in miracles.

are you kidding me?

life is all about miracles. expect them in your life now!

if you do not accept the idea that you deserve miracles, then when abundance falls into your lap, you will refuse it somehow, criticizing others about never having enough or being jealous when others have what you want.

do you choose to see miracles or where blinders?

i choose miracles.

because when i chose fear. my life, my body, my mind crumbled.

go within. be one with change. face your fear of the future.  

whatever you focus your attention on increases, so don't focus on barely scraping by. if you focus on lack and debt, then you will create more lack and debt in your life.

i look forward to discovering new doors in my life. i throw them wide open with excitement. & i find gold every time

a miracle awaits you today, will you see it? will you embrace it?