truth

it's a no, until you ask!

for a long time, i lived in fear. i was afraid. i was afraid to be wrong.

i was scared to hear someone say no to me.

i know, such a simple 2 letter word.

but honestly, it ate away at me.

& not knowing what to do, i let it get to me.

i let hearing that one syllable word control me.

my mind would race with confusion. my head would pound.

it was awful.

but one day after hearing the word no, i understood

i could use that two letter word as motivation + inspiration 

the word didn't need to stop me

& it wouldn't.

 
here i am appreciating the beauty of the napali coast of kauai in her fullest wonder because i stopped being afraid of hearing no 

here i am appreciating the beauty of the napali coast of kauai in her fullest wonder because i stopped being afraid of hearing no 

 

why put life on hold?

why wait?

why live the same way day after day?

and if i didn't ask, the answer is pretty simple, no.

so if the answer is a no if you don't do anything, i realized if i did something there was the possibility that it might be a yes.

why wait any longer delaying my potential?

a no is only a no until i turn it into a yes

ask and be surprised

got feedback? i'd love to know...how, specifically, have you handled being told no? how did you respond to turn that no into a yes? what worked and what didn't? 

share your ideas and stories below

with love

Derek Russell
 

letting the voices come out

i couldn't sleep last night. my head was pounding. and it wouldn't quit! and then all i heard were voices. get up. write. this is your time. we are here with you. ok that's kinda freaky, but i'm totally down! i can feel this shift in my body

let go...let go of the fear within you! let it float away. it no longer serves you. you do not need it. you feel ease. an entire weight has been removed from your body.

this is the first time i am writing about these voices i'm hearing. i can sense the voices waking me up. my body says i'm tired but my heart says keep writing. why would i do this? what is it? something is getting released. my fear.

an engineer by training, i'm not satisfied with that path. i do not feel fulfilled. why waste an entire life living the "shoulds" and "supposed to" rules? who made these rules anyway? i'm sick of following everyone else's rules that only help them! listen to us. we will guide you.

let go of the fear and ego. their battle will never end until you let it

over the years i've become attached to this fear and ego driven banter that i now recognize echoing away in my mind. i'm scared of being wrong. i'm afraid of failure. i am pursuing my dreams. i am a creative! i am soulful! i am abundant!

the truth will set you free.