success

i'm working 3 jobs

i must enjoy work or why else would i be working more after work?

i've currently got a full time job as an engineer - yet i've got my entire art career which has blossomed into a beautiful dream. and i also started another online business www.happyhealthyteam.com with my wife. we have a lot to share. 

in 2014, my wife, Kara, and I moved in together, got married and soon realized if we wanted our love to grow, we needed to come together in the kitchen. tipping our cupboards upside down, we ditched the processed junk and limiting beliefs and created our dream lifestyle. together we created HappyHealthyTeam.com to guide you to a happy and healthy life for you and your family.

as abraham lincoln once said, "the best way to predict the future is to create it"

and that is exactly what i am doing. it's what i have been doing all along. 

i am creating the future i dream of.

i am creating building a business that allows me to live my ideal lifestyle daily. not just on weekends. not just after work. i am quitting my 9-5 to follow my calling. i've been doing this for years now. and i'm good at it. i enjoy creating online businesses that create passive income. 

it's all about creating a business that can run itself. what needs to happen is it needs to be made fully automated.

i'm super excited for this growth. 

this is my ticket out of working the 9-5. 

offer yourself this gift this holiday season

i am in awe at the wonderful magnificence that awakens me each day. ok i need to come clean. i admit, i do have an alarm clark but that's not quite the magnificence i'm referring too. I'm talking about my soul's ability to awaken before the alarm clock each and every day, and at around the same time each day. my inner clock - no i am being told it isn't even a clock. maybe it is the soul or a spirit guide looking to offer me something that cannot be heard during the hustle of the day. 

there is a time for communication and there is a time for quiet meditation.

i am just like you.  

the thoughts still like to play with me. they enjoy coming in, dancing around, causing a rise out of me and then move on. i like that dance. i am the lead. and when i meditate i choose to allow thoughts and feelings to come and go without any attachment to them. i give no attachment to these thoughts and they fade away on their own. 

i close my eyes and look up into my minds eye. my third eye. i see the writing on a black board. or is it blue? is it the sky? letters coming across from right to left. sliding almost, 

blurry fields

as i try to focus in on the words, the fog envelopes me. 

let the magic of life dance for you. let the miracle of life become a daily appreciation. 

each day is a miracle. it is whether you choose to see it as such. i'm at a point in my life where i say why not? why continue to choose to see problems when i can choose possibilities.  

when i go to that place of possibility, anything is possible. anything can be turned to gold. anything i focus my attention on has the power to show up in my life today. i feel this - i know this (beautiful). it is a fact for me. there is no attachment to the outcome. there is no one else confirming this to me. there is me. my soul. and i know. i have that burning desire that heats up. it melts away the bonds to fear and lack mentality. 

i am forever expansive. i am free.

i am true. i express the truth. and that truth is beauty.

oh it feels so good communing with you. i hope you don't think I'm crazy?

its okay, I'm not caught up in that game of comparison. besides its nice to have this chance to talk with you.

i am love.

you are love. spread your wings and fly. soar above the trees. open your wings. 

the peace. the fulfillment. the joy.

so simple, yet so very empowering.

in this time when everyone around me is go go go and rush rush rush, i choose to go inward. i choose to look for a place where i can offer myself a gift. and that gift is silence.

it is the new medicine of the world. you'll hear about it soon.

within you is the capacity for healing. take time for yourself this holiday season.

the comparison trap

are you a competitor? do you strive to be better than others? to always come out on top? to make more money? 

how does that make you feel?

do you find yourself comparing who you are, what you do and what you have achieved to others? 

social media has created a trap and Facebook so geniusly (and creatively) enables this comparison. Facebook is a powerhouse for information. daily, daily there are 5 billion pieces of content uploaded.

people feel required to update their Facebook lives and keep up with others. it's so easy to scroll through the newsfeed, to see someone you knew years ago doing something today that you wished you were doing. it's so easy to compare. it's so easy to feel worthless. it's so easy to lose track of your own intentions. it's so easy to feel jealous.

you are not alone, i do it myself. i've fallen into the very same trap too (all too often over the past year). and it left me in a state of wanting. of wanting what other people seem to have. 

you can't come from a place of scarcity and expect to see what you want coming into you life. you can't come from a state of wanting more and more.

my mind likes to run (figuratively of course). and when freely open to the flow of abundance, i can direct the conditions I'm experiencing in my life.

stop allowing constant analysis. stop constantly comparing. suspend your egos need to constantly impose critical views.

nothing can stop your flow of abundance but your resistance to it. pay attention to your field of joy and joy will be what you experience.

you cannot be connected to your source and be stressed at the same time.

limit your exposure to social media and spend time doing what makes you feel good.

offer your soul a gift.

be brave. choose your own freedom and practice surrender.

awaken the spirit within you

it worked. it worked. my spirit has come alive.

last night before i drifted off into blissful rest, i asked my spirit guides for guidance. and they are here with me right now. a soft beauty now surrounds my heart. a sensation of love. a feeling of togetherness. we are all one. 

waking up with the urge to write, to express, to share. i am doing it. its 5am and I'm writing again. YAY. so much joy right now, you don't even understand. 

for months now, i've been attempting to wake up and write. i want to share my story. i know when i share my story big things are happening. its an amazing journey that I'm proud to be a part of. there is a bigger part of me, something i am trying to explain through my words. when i write in the morning i am most connected to my universal source energy. there haven't been conditions throughout the day that have triggered emotions. i am at my most peaceful state. 

there is something about writing in the early morning for me. it is just me and spirit. words flow like water. gently caressing the page with ease and comfort. there is a peaceful ambiance to the air.

like water droplets hitting the roof and sliding down. life is a gift. appreciate every moment you have. appreciate and take it in. no need to be sour. no need to be someone you are not. 

release the baggage and pick up a handful of bewilderment. 

there are people out there telling me what to write. how to write. why to write. but in all reality. i write because i have an inner calling to write to connect to share my messages with you. i know you get it. and i know there are others who just want the facts, the meat, the pie. they can go get that but first, a blessing for myself. for awakening the spirit within me. thank you.

do you ever wonder why you are here? and what your purpose on earth really is?

you came here for a reason. you are reading my writing for a reason. we are all connected. we are connected to a universal power that is stronger than force. why would you be here otherwise? and if you are meant to be appreciating each moment, why choose to criticize and blame yourself. are you looking for help from someone outside you? are you looking for pity? 

now is your time to choose yourself. give yourself a break and live a little. you'll be amazed at all the possibilities that start happening in your life.

my genius has been asking to speak. out of my misunderstanding, i was taking the messages to be fatigue and boredom. but really, they were signs for me to move beyond the surface emotions.

your genius awaits you. your genius is here ready to connect with you. open up your minds eye and soul. breathe fully. breathe deeply. and love.

love the miracle of life that brought you here. love the miracle that connected us all. 

many of us have gone throughout our lives believing false evidence. we believe success needs to be hard to come by. we believe in order to succeed we need to work really really really hard for it. we need to pay the price of admission. and out of this force we expect unlimited abundance and happiness and prosperity.

the opposite actually happens. we see less and less of our families that at one point in our lives that was all we cared about. all we wanted was to be united with that special someone. all of our waking hours were consumed with dreams of who she is and what she was like. and how about that happiness card? have you really thought there is something you need to be, do or have before you can grant yourself the opportunity to be happy. to experience happiness is a birthright. and by all means, prosperity. what does prosperity mean to you? does it mean riches? does it mean gold? does it mean the fastest car? or is there more to prosperity than material wealth? 

the choice is yours. your time has come. will you answer your calling?

sharing the beauty

the colors of spring are here! love it. i love color. 

and being outside feels so good. the sunshine is AMAZING.

our minds have a powerful ability to imagine whatever we choose. and when we focus our attention on disempowering beliefs we destroy any sense of creativity we may have had.

with a slight breeze and the sun starting to lower, my wife and i head out for an evening walk. immediately we were in awe of the forsythia blooming brightly just steps away from my new studio (yes you heard it my own art studio with gallery). we had to stop, run back and grab a camera to capture this spirit

i'm so grateful for this opportunity to express my soul. to have my own place where I can create under the moonlight and before the sunrises is a dream.

what we think about truly becomes our reality. train your mind to create your desires. repetition is the mother of all skill. make those thoughts count.

An Inspirational Morning

it's gonna be a great day. i can hear the birds singing that song now - (listen carefully in the video below).

what a beautiful way to wake up. i love it here.

so so inspiring.

enjoy the beauty that today offers, and make it AMAZING

on making decisions

i'm strengthening my muscles. not just my physical muscles but my muscles to take risks, my muscles to make decisions, my muscles to learn.

for as long as i can remember, i've refused to be wrong. it just wasn't an option for me. i had to be right no matter what it was.

and it is this rigid refusal to never be wrong that launched me down a path i unconsciously chose for myself.

over the years, i've experienced physical pain in many ways.

just 2 years ago, a week before my sister's destination wedding, i was lifting an axel with tires over my head. i was outside on pavement. i was with a strongman competitor - imagine a really big guy and then triple that size. 

i wanted his approval, so i pushed myself beyond my bodies physical limits. i blacked out and fell straight backwards to the ground. My head smashing the pavement.

coming to, i slowly remembered where i was. when i got to the emergency care facility, i cried. i cried because i couldn't focus. i cried because i couldn't read the forms. i slumped down in the chair. tears filled my eyes. fear crept over me. what have i done to myself. i didn't even want to be doing this workout. i was only doing it to fit it. 

my immediate reaction was to get mad at myself. 

i was given a second chance that day, and i vowed to never do that workout again.

and time would pass.

until i got injured again. this time a hamstring injury.

i couldn't deal with it. it ate at me. i buried myself in the pain. 

next a knee injury.

more feeling sorry for myself. more guilt. more pain.

until i most recently have been experiencing an elbow injury. 

my soul is channeled. you are being given gifts. can you see them?

how are you going to pick yourself up after you fail? how are you learning from each of your experiences? how you decide to live consciously from this moment on is what makes your present and future. decide to stop feeling sorry for yourself. decide to stop believing you only get attention when you are injured. these beliefs are part of your past. you do not need to carry them with you any longer..

too often you go with the flow because it is the easiest thing to do. you go with the current, with the masses. but what happens when the current picks up and you are presented with a fork in the river? do you have a game plan for where you want to be in your life or are you just flailing at this point? are you scrambling to get to the shore, hoping to dodge the rocks? or are you oblivious to the choice you had? are you aware of the decisions you are making in this moment?

i'm proud to be back on my ship. i've got my map out and i'm looking down the river. i'm open to the expected and unexpected routes to take me where i'm looking to go. no longer are my past conditions going to leave me stuck in the mud, unable to move. i'm taking absolute control over my life.

i am flexible and flowing.

i easily move with new experiences, new directions and new changes.

i matter

i'm out of paper. i typically handwrite all my morning freewrites. so this is a test. an internal test to teach my mind. i am releasing my mental patterns while writing directly onto the computer. i close my eyes and type. the energy will flow magically through me. 

if it doesn't work, it doesn't work, i'll go downstairs and get more paper. right now, it's just too comfy and warm snuggling into this leather couch. 

i am open for the expression.

with my eyes closed, i stop worrying about the grammar, the direction, the technical jargon associated with how i was taught to write. finally i don't need to worry about the words. it's more about the release of emotion for me now. i can go back later and edit it. that's if i can read it. but by not attaching myself to the physical body typing on the physical computer, i rise above my body. i enter into a state of what i like to call mindfulness. a place where i feel like i am out of my body. a place where i am present. a place that gives me a direct channel to communicate with my soul.

i am a medium. i love the experience of bringing my soul into the game. my soul has wisdom beyond my wildest imagination.

 
 prints are now available  here

prints are now available here

 

i choose to free this imagination. no longer am i to limit myself. no longer am i to live in rigidity.

i am flexible and flowing. i easily move in new directions, new experiences and new changes.

these are the new mental thought patterns i am applying.

it's time to channel, i hear, so i write it down. (wait, did i just hear the spirit? this is so cool. thank you. i offer a silent blessing)

what is it that you are trying to tell me this morning i ask?

you matter. you make a difference. you have a direct impact for millions of souls from around the world. your words, your actions, your paintings give others what they are looking for. you offer inspiration. you give hope. you share excitement. 

life can be whatever you make it. sometimes you need to change the mental patterns that have brought you to where you are presently. are you happy with your life? your job? your health? your relationships? your contribution?

YES! absolutely! i love my life


i choose to learn

a pivotal decision came to me about a month ago when i decided, again, that i was finally going to immerse myself in learning.

i love learning. i've loved it for the longest time, however i never liked the approach taught in schools. i hated to memorize. i hated to be forced to learn certain material in a certain way. and all so that a teacher could "test" you on your understanding of the material. heck it's only the material that someone else wanted you to know.

wouldn't it be great if you had the choice to learn what interested you?

i'm here to tell you, you do.

pick up that book you have been wanting to read. order that audio program you have been thinking about. you deserve it. you deserve to grow. it is your birthright.

i am committed to learning.

                                                    soaring high atop Mount Chocorua

                                                   soaring high atop Mount Chocorua

when i was younger, i had "friends" that would tease me about learning. and because i was not confident in myself at this time in my development, i listened to them.

i only learned what i needed to learn based on what the teachers wanted me to know. i learned for the sake of grades alone. not because i was interested in the material.

and that's an important consideration to make. what excites you? 

now I'm learning because i want to. i have linked an incredible amount of pleasure to learning. and this creation of pleasure feels good to me. and guess what else it does for me? it make me want to learn even more.

when i was younger i dabbled into personal development, mindfulness, the metaphysical and alternative healing modalities. it intrigued me. it excited me. somewhere along the lines, i told myself i could never make anything of it, so i stopped learning what i wanted and only focused on what others wanted me to learn.

i am thankful for this opportunity right now. it's time to stop feeling sorry for myself. it's time to stop worrying what others will think. it's time to do what feels right to me.

if i can understand human behavior, the emotions associated with that particular behavior and how to change that developed pattern, i could greatly change my life. i could create the life of my dreams. and this is what i did.

learning is giving me the ability to create the physical body i choose, to feel better, to experience happiness, to inspire and connect with the people i care about, to marry my twin flame, to live in my dream home + more.

learning is a gift i can share with you. and I'm committed to it. 

i'm on a transformational journey. i love the emotions that are running through me as i write.

empowerment. excitement. joy. love

i am blessed to share my life with my wife. 

and it all came back to applying the strategies around making a difference in peoples lives. there are tools and strategies that when applied correctly can massively affect positive change in your life. i am living, breathing testament to it.

a morning of gratitude

3:30am. it's early.

i turn the alarm off. i choose to lay in a state of gratitude. i flood my mind with all that i am grateful for.

my bed that gave me comfort throughout the night. these sheets that kept me warm.

the love vibrating from my wife as she peacefully sleeps beside me.

i move closer to cuddle, feeling her wrap her arms around me. i smile. there is nothing more that i like better than a soft embrace, especially in the early morning hours.

i'm thankful for my hearing as i listen to the birds singing their songs - spring is back

i'm drawn to open my eyes, sight - what a gift. thank you, thank you, thank you.

inspiration builds inside me. i feel these colors are speaking directly to me. the sky transforms into a majestic array of beauty. peach hues, strawberry highlights, lilac clouds contrast this lightness. the evening sky a thing of beauty. always changing. always alive. always new. so fresh. so amazing. thank you.

 capturing beauty in nature

capturing beauty in nature

i continue on closing my eyes again. thank you for my dream home. thank you for my life. thank you for this day.

the more i learn, the more engaged i become. i love the expansion that is happening. i can feel myself healing.

taking it a step further, i challenge my mind to consistently repeat, i approve of myself. i started this exercise a few days ago. at first i was struck by the silliness of this. if felt stupid. it felt wrong. why did i need to tell myself that i approve of myself. of course i do. why do i need to say? my ego treading on thin water attempts to freeze the pond of my mind.

i walk in step to my inner intelligence as i choose to recite these powerful four words over and over in my head.

far too long, i neglected to take care of me. i'm done worrying about what i did or didn't do in my past. i'm doing it now.

an ease flows over me.

i release the need to get up, to go to my 9-5 (technically speaking i've got a 7-4) for the next 2.5 hours.

i relax in the presence that i am.

awake. aware. alive.

i trust the process of life. all is well.

paint the message inside me

i am willing to release my fears. i am accepting the success that comes to me easily and quickly. i no longer need to live in guilt that others will be jealous of me when i am successful. that is something you created for yourself. no one imposed that belief on you.

i start a canvas this morning but am stopped before i can add any paint. the urge within me was a definite no! 

what is this? and why is it so forceful? and aren't i meant to let art out?

you were attempting to recreate an image because that is what you have done in the past. it is time for you to graduate onward. your next journey is to the big canvas. i mean BIG canvas. life-size. 

jump right into it. that is where your truest expressions are born. 

break past your fears of not knowing what to paint. you know exactly what to do. you must go within, you must access the depths of your soul. inspiration comes when you are in spirit. 

go for a walk, get outside, exercise, do yoga, meditate but do not force a creation that does not feel good to you.

maybe i'll read and write.

getting away from the canvas, i'm hungry. i indulge in a leftover meal of vegetable barley soup. 

create from that deepest place within you. let the magic spontaneously erupt onto canvas. trust. believe. have faith.

i am here to guide you derek, you are safe, all is well. i interrupted your pattern of thought earlier today. i interrupted you because you have been wanting more guidance. here it is. 

go bigger. go bolder. go from within.

your collectors come to you by the thousands. they want this channeled emotion. this bottled up energy inside you. it is alive with life energy. it energizes all who come into contact with it. it brings happiness and joy. it speaks volumes of the soul.

each of your paintings have meaning within them. they are more than just color. there is a message inside each and every one of them. paint that message.

this is what your collectors are looking for now.

the ripple effect of thought

energy is vibrational. it has a magical way of giving us information when we align to that energy field. too many times in my past, i'd ignore those signs. i'd only have my own worries at hand that i wanted to work on. i had my own mission. i was close minded. i was greedy. i was not seeing my fullest potential. 

i didn't feel the need to help others. but i've shifted.

and life gave me an opportunity to begin.

 
 my wife and i on a hike. this is a way for me to realize new opportunities

my wife and i on a hike. this is a way for me to realize new opportunities

 

becoming aware of my senses, especially the ones that allow me to feel energy, i noticed something was upsetting. it wasn't upsetting me, yet it was still present. it was there in the room with me. 

that was my first speed bump.

the thoughts i think about become my reality. and far to often i would get confused about my thoughts and the feelings i'd sense. when i'd sense unsettling feelings, i'd change my thoughts to meet this new feeling. and all of a sudden, i'm now living someone else's reality, not my own.

so i question this belief. i question it because it doesn't make sense to me why i need to change who i am for someone else.

if someone else has a thought it is clear to me that that thought will become true for them. if our thoughts are different which they will be, our life experiences will be different. it is liberating for me to know i have the power to change my thoughts which affect my reality. and i do not need to change how i feel because of how someone else feels. they are allowed to live a different life.

but that vibration is still there. i could feel the energy. it was quiet. it was slow. it was tired.

i'm here to help. i'm here to heal. and i have the gifts that i can share that will help.

forgetting what i've always done in the past, which hasn't worked, i tried a new approach. i applied proven principles to counter that energy.

i asked, is everything okay? not getting to the root, i changed the question. are you tired?

yes she softly answers. 

is there something you want to talk about? silence. change the question my mind offered again.

and the energy shifted.

what is it that causes human emotion to behave in certain ways. if you had the choice to be tired, sad, happy, excited, energized, jazzed, what would you choose? 

now if you find yourself wanting to feel sad. accept that feeling. feel that emotion of sadness. sadness is an experience that is giving you a time to go within. why are you experiencing that sadness? it may be your ego answering back but truly embrace that feeling. 

this sadness is not who you are. it may be the experience you are feeling in this moment. it may be the only thing on your mind, but it doesn't need to control you.

maybe you feel tired. if you are tired, go to bed. get some sleep. rest. your body is talking to you.

if you want something different out of your body, decide to take on that different belief.

i lived a long time always coming home from work feeling tired. i had a long day. i had a long drive. all i felt was tired. it became my routine. it became the pattern i adopted for myself. it made me miserable. i fell deeper into a quote unquote coma. i operated each day but wasn't ever present. i simply went through the motions. silently wasting my day, i dreaded having to do it again and again and again. 

something needs to change. something needs to happen. this is not the life i envision for myself. i'm changing this behavior.

one night, it's 7pm, i'm alone, i've been awake since 4am, i decide enough is enough.

i'm sick of complaining about being tired. i'm sick of living this way. i want to learn. i want to read. i want to grow. 

but how can i do that when i'm tired, it's not possible, my mind interjects.

quite the contrary. 

anything is possible when you see life as an opportunity. and this opportunity presented herself to me powerfully as a lesson. 

i am willing to change.

i get up. i move. i alter my state of being.

emotion is created by motion i remember tony robbins telling me.

i made a cup of green tea - the caffeine will physically wake me up. this is what i'm called to do today.

i make that cup of tea. i wake up. i read. and i feel energized. i no longer want to just lazily go to bed. i no longer want to just come home from work and sit around. that's just not me. i've got bigger plans.

day after day, i continue to take charge. that feeling has passed. my mind has taken on a new pattern. and i'm energized to serve.

take your life to the next level by accepting who you are today. forgive yourself of any past experience. forgive yourself for any blame and guilt that you have allowed into your being. 

forgiveness is the key to awareness and awareness is your magic wand.

you have an immense power within you to be great.

when you throw a rock into a pond, a ripple effects occurs.

life answers the very same way.

so choose to continually throw rockets of desire into your mind, break your pattern of thought that is limiting you, and let that vibrational energy respond. it will thunder on. 

each day is an opportunity to begin again. how will you choose to begin?

life supports me

i woke up with a pounding headache. one of those pains that reverberates from your forehead encapsulating your eyes and shoots to the back of your head. back and forth the energy quickens and speeds up - hunger. hunger pains hit me hard. 

relax and allow those feelings to pass my soul is with me now.

 
Derek Russell
 

feed your body, give your body nourishment. your body is a wonder land of opportunity. always there for you whenever you call upon him. support your body with proper nutrition, rest, exercise, and love.  

if you want to go somewhere, go there + know that life supports you. life loves you.

calling to my soul this morning, are you there? i'd like to channel you through me. are there other spirits there with you? they are free to come through as well. i'm beginning to recognize the incredible power i have when i ask for guidance.

and the creative juice flows.

love the gifts you share. you are becoming attuned to your higher life's purpose.

this is a very special moment. one that will never come again. feel each ounce of excitement. 

smile bigger + brighter than ever before. know that your gifts are within you. discover them, open up to them, and breathe in that deep place of knowing. you are well on your way.

we're proud of you derek. last night, you made a grand leap of faith. you activated the energy from within. instead of empathizing with someone else's worries and fears and bringing them into your life. instead of taking them on as your own, you stood firm. you stood from the castle of awareness. you kept the moat all around you. you were the giant that could not be taken down. you were the giver of love. your passion to help came through loud and clear. did you sense it? 

this gentle offering of service to another awakened the desire within you to create major breakthroughs in other peoples life - this is your calling. do you feel it? you are the next tony robbins and wayne dyer. your words flow with ease out of the depths of your soul.

continue to apply your wisdom. continue to read and write and implement. take action. take risks.

let art out, let love in

as i sit here, i'm at a crossroads.

i'm blank.

and this is a strange for me. confusion.

is there something wrong with me?

am i really doing the right thing?

my soul reminds me, just ask.

immediately, my mind shouts back, NO! it won't work. don't do it. you will fail. you must work harder, fight more, and bear more pain.

no, no i don't, i finally admit to myself. you are an instrument for me to express my soul. i am not an instrument for you to manipulate any longer.

my soul backs me up, your mind will try to fight you when you try something new. you no longer need to let that thought that is created within your mind that was created from your past conditioning shape how you behave today in this moment.

you have an enormous power within you. you are meant for great things. and this is all part of your journey. it is all part of your understanding. when you see what others call problems as opportunities you shift. you shift your life to one of truth and abundance.

the choice is always yours.

you can choose to give up and feel unworthy, or you can stand up and embrace your divinity. your birthright. your passion.

your mind is a powerful tool. and with any powerful tool, you need to train it. you need to learn what works for you.

don't scold yourself. this is common and all part of your healing. you asked for guidance. and i'm here to give it to you.

your mind is programmed to behave a certain way. what you need to do is get at the root of that programming and change the program.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
— serenity prayer, reinhold niebuhr

so i guide you to ask for guidance. ask for direction and be ready for the next breakthrough that is coming directly to you. be an instrument of love. flow with the natural rhythm of life and your world will unfold beautifully before your very eyes.

and then it hits me.

let art out + let love in.

yes! inspiration with meaning, channeled from my soul.

on releasing my attachment to discover my twin flame

every day i am presented with choices to make. my mind always wanting to please others, i know which direction he tries to steer me. he wants to win at all costs. he wants to be right no matter what the fallout. he needs that approval.

man this is deeply rooted inside me. 

i can feel my soul send shivers down my right arm, now my left. a chill encompasses my entire being. immediately i know what is important to me. 

love.

how can i express my love today?

love for myself, love for my twin flame, love for others, love for life.

i am a creature of habit but am breaking my ties. i no longer need to live the same way, everyday.

if something is not making me happy, i choose to get at the seed of that thought, remove it from my garden and plant a new seed.

i know i can. i have the tools the strength and the power to do so. i may need to weed my garden of my worries but when i do, my world answers me with bountiful blessings. 

a case in point.

just over a year ago, i asked the girl of my dreams to marry me. we hiked to the top of her favorite peak (alone in a blizzard) where i dropped to one knee and expressed my love, my commitment, my excitement to share the rest of my life with her. and the best part, she eventually said yes - yes eventually, that's a side story i'll share at some point.

Derek Russell proposes atop mountain to kara

the joy running through my body right meow fills me with peace. it fills me with pure happiness again. to think about that moment that happened just over a year ago, i am immediately a little boy again full of youthful expression.

but before i was with her, i was alone. i was alone for many years. i was lonely. i wanted her in my life. 

i dated many young and beautiful women. many only lasted a couple of dates. a couple were longer but eventually those relationships turned into better friendships. we knew we each had a different life we were meant to live. and so we moved on.

and it was hard. living years without anyone. by myself. i was attractive, funny, athletic, smart. where was she? and why haven't i found he yet, i agonized about it day after day.

i did something new to me. i called upon my angels to help me find her. 

my soul reminds me, when you can live and trust that what you desire is coming back to you, you will be surprised at how quickly you see what you desire appearing in your life. and it will come to you when you are ready. no earlier, no later.

i practice visualizing my life with my future wife. i see us smiling. laughing. playing. traveling the world. helping millions. i imagine the adventures we take together, the experiences we share, the love.

i grin from ear to ear this morning seeing the complete verification of this tool in my life.

as i released my inner need to have this girl in my life, the universe guided me into her arms.

when you committed to trusting yourself, when you let go of that incessant attachment, + when you really felt the emotions of being with her, you aligned yourself with your next level of awareness. you freed your mind from worry. your expression of gratitude in this moment brought you more to be grateful for.

be one with your creator.

be one with your spirit.

bringing this awareness into my mind this morning of what i created, i am at peace. i feel AMAZING! i can do whatever i intend. all i need to do i ask my angels for guidance, put the power of intention to work and trust the universe will handle all the details. 

I choose abundance for life.

on becoming my own captain

i'm studying ways to grow, to improve my life, to be happy in every moment. i'm reading and applying the wisdom of the masters that came before me. our history is full of brave souls who have not feared the wrath of others. individuals who have dreams of bigger and brighter futures. they did not sit on the sidelines and let life happen to them. they went out there and played their own music - the music their souls were singing.

and i'm with them on this one! but how?

i make my way up the stairs after a full day at my 9-5. where does this energy come from to pursue my dreams? for so long now, i've used the excuse, I'm tired. and this excuse spirals into i've had a long day and all i want to do is just relax, eat some dinner, watch tv and go to bed.  

my soul - closer to me now, reminds me, it all begins with awareness. when you can admit that you are using an excuse to guide your life, you unlock the first door to your awakening. 

the moment you bring your awareness to this present moment, you see deeper than the outer layer. you discover what is really driving your soul.

I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.
— Invictus by William Ernest Henley

television has been a way for me in my past to hide from my true being. i could surrender to the television every night, with a drink in hand and wash away the miseries of the day. i couldn't stand this life support that lay victim to. it is so engrained in us to veg out in front of the television every night for hours at end - just to go to bed and do it again?!?!

i know i've been victim to this epidemic for a long time.

as i learn who i am and what works for me, i notice it is a place where i can shelter myself. i can protect myself. i can stay the same.

when i stare at the box, i watch other people interact and grow. it saves me from having to do the hard work myself. i put my life on a permanent cycle of defeat and boredom.

but why do it any longer? what is the true meaning of life?

if i were to die tomorrow, the last thing on my bucket list is to sit at home and watch television. i am all about becoming the best i can be. i love who i am.

yes there are times, when i criticize my body, i scold myself, i tell myself hateful things, but I'm going beyond those times. it is time for me to change. it is time for me to be me.

i have an entire bucket list - well in my head right now, maybe today i'll write it down. 

because what if tomorrow truly is my last day here on this earth. nobody knows for certain how long they are going to live. nobody knows when that day is. and nobody needs to know. but what i want to know is that i lived my life to the fullest each and every day doing what i love.

i am a genius and i apply my wisdom everyday. i use this affirmation every day the moment i wake up in the early morning hours. the magnificence that i know is me makes me smile.

my paintings are expressions of my soul. they are a time when i connect to my own inner magnificence and share that inspiration with you.

i have collectors from all over the world. i'm honored to be the artist they have chosen to create masterpieces. i put my heart, i put in my soul into every piece of work i produce. 

more and more collectors are coming to me from out of the woodwork. they offer me projects that align with my purpose. i love the synchronicity of life. i love asking for guidance. 

she answers me every time without fail, such a beautiful being of compassion. your patience has paid off. you no longer need to live in fear. you can let go of your insecurities. you are safe. you have all the money you need to live the life you dream. you are financially free. 

on growing with my twin flame

i am going through a healing that i have been training for for a quite a long time. and i am finally ready. i am finally ready to heal. i am finally ready to grow.

this one goes out to my twin flame, my best friend, my adventure buddy, my lover, my wife, my little peach, my monkey.

i am so grateful to have you in my life.

you will not even begin to understand how long i have been searching for you. or maybe you will. maybe your soul has been searching for me.

but what i do know is, i was not willing to settle with anyone other than you. there is no woman, no girl, no lady more exquisite than you. no soul more magnificent than yours.

over every hill, across country lines, within each forest, and under every sea, i called for you. i sent out a beacon of love for you.

and i knew i had to find you before i could even think about moving onward on my journey, on our journey together.

we have traveled many lifetimes apart but the reuniting of our souls in this physical body is stronger than ever. our love sends rockets of radiance to all those around us. we are messengers of love, healers of light.

you are a gift in my life and there is no place i'd rather be than in your arms.

i belong with you, you belong with me, you’re my sweetheart
— ho hey, the lumineers

i may not always say thank you. i may not always agree with you. but know the togetherness i feel with you is one of unbounded love. it is unbending. and it will never break.

our love is beautiful and bright.

i love you more than words could ever describe.

i am immensely thankful that we have connected, that we are sharing our lives becoming what our souls are intended to be - and we are doing it TOGETHER.

you are my rock.

thank you for shining love in my life. 

thank you for supporting me throughout this healing.

i am awakening to my inner intelligence and am releasing these hidden fears that i've buried deep within me.

my soul is awakening and communicating with me more and more.

before i met you i hid my anger and inner hatred. i smothered myself. i was a victim in my life. i was always looking for the approval of others. i needed it. i wasn't able to be me.

with you i realize i don't need to live that way anymore. i don't need to pretend any longer. i don't want to.

i am moving through this pain very quickly.

marrying you was the most joyful day of my life. it was a day when all my worries disappeared. all my fears were nowhere to be seen, nowhere to be felt, nowhere to be heard. it was a day of pure love, happiness, and freedom. it was our day. and what a day it was!

i thought for sure i was going to cry. but the sight of you strutting down that aisle to me on that most memorable day, our most glorious day this past october is forever engrained in my heart, in my mind and in my soul when our souls united to become one, all i could do was smile. it was happening. 

 see what i mean, big smile. Photo by NH Images

see what i mean, big smile. Photo by NH Images

you beamed a brilliant white light of love of happiness of life waving at everyone and telling them how beautiful they looked, yet you were the only one i saw. you looked so elegant in your backless dress.

 ow ow we look so fine. photo by nh images

ow ow we look so fine. photo by nh images

the silliness, the laughter, the life we share is a dream come true. it has been a dream of mine since i was a little boy.

i longed for you way before i ever knew you.

so i'd like to take this moment, right now, to ask you for your hand again

it's time to dance the night away

What Artists Influenced Me

This past week, Emily, an art student studying at Penrice Academy in Cornwall, England reached out to me with a question a lot of you have asked me over the years.

I am so very thankful for the gift I am able to share with you. I count my blessings daily! 

Please leave me a comment below - let me know who has influenced you in your creative journey? 

go after what you want

It had long since come to my attention that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. They went out and happened to things.
— Elinor Smith

i was reading an article the other day, i know i should have written down the website but i forgot, but i came across this quote by elinor smith and needed to share it. 

there is so much power in her words! 

so much so i want to repeat them so i remember to apply them in my life!

...people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. they went out and happened to things!

so so powerful

it's a great tuesday, it's the start of a new year, and i'm pumped

i'm ready to make things happen

opportunities are behind every door

it's my turn to start knocking

& unlocking the door to infinite possibilities.

i'm applying her wisdom right now as i write this blog

after i'm done, i'll be searching, researching and contacting interior designers, galleries, art advisors, & more to get onto their radar. i'm going to ask them questions. i'm going to rack their brains. they are the experts. it's time to start working smarter not harder. it's time to get more exposure. i can feel my art ready to explode out of me, and i want the world to hear it.

 
 hanging loose with my wifey in hawaii!

hanging loose with my wifey in hawaii!

 

i'm making it big - it feels good to say that. hey i deserve it 

i'm building relationships with the right people 

i'm creating a business for myself that affords me the lifestyle i want

because i'm all about lifestyle design.

everything i do, i do because i am looking to spend more time with my family and friends doing the things i want to be doing. i want to be exploring. i want to be climbing mountains. i want to be making people laugh. i want to inspire. i want to heal.

if you resonate with my passion in this blog, please leave me a comment below. i'd love for you to share what tickles your funny bone, what inspired action do you want to take today that could change your life forever.

now go ahead and leave me a comment, you could even just say, hey derek, i'm here and i'm supporting you.

thank you for your wonderful insights

with magnificence

derek russell love